“For the message of the cross is foolishness [absurd and illogical] to those who are perishing and spiritually dead [because they reject it], but to us who are being saved [by God’s grace] it is [the manifestation of] the power of God.”
‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭1:18‬ ‭AMP‬‬

I see Moses with a glorious shiny face every time he came from talking with God. It is illustrated in Exodus 34; that he only removed his veil when he went in to speak with God. When he came out to speak to the people, he had to put back on the veil. This shine is said to have faded away over time…

“We are not like Moses, who used a veil to hide the glory to keep the Israelites from staring at him as it faded away. Their minds were closed and hardened, for even to this day that same veil comes over their minds when they hear the words of the former covenant. The veil has not yet been lifted from them, for it is only eliminated when one is joined to the Messiah.”
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭3:13-14‬ ‭TPT‬‬

We find another veil in the sacred tent of worship again during the time of Moses; this veil separated the two holy places…and again we see this veil torn at the death of Jesus at Calvary. It is here the significance and purpose of the veil ended and it became obsolete. It was the end of legalism, righteous works and sins’ power.

“But whenever someone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. For the Lord is the Spirit, and wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. So all of us who have had that veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord—who is the Spirit—makes us more and more like him as we are changed into his glorious image.”
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭3:16-18‬ ‭NLT‬‬

The symbolism of these array of veils depicts limitations, hindered accesses and conditioned relationship. Moses wore a veil to cover the glory of God that shone on his face; this veil allowed people to look at him while he addressed them. Gods glory had been rubbing off on Moses during their hangout seasons. The veil in the tent separated hierarchies of holiness and access points for the high priests; a succinct definition of legalism

Today, the freedom we freely receive through Christ by the finished work of the cross has given us such access and graced audacity, to literary go to the throne of God, like boom! “Here I am God! I see you, you see me?” Christ obliterated all legalistic actions that the old covenant demanded. When Jesus expunged the old covenant with its demands, we became forgiven, absolved from mortal sin and thus becoming new heirs with Christ. God became our father, Jesus our brother the first born, and these promise came alive and are live;

John 19:30

“This is the covenant I will establish with the people of Israel after that time, declares the Lord. I will put my laws in their minds and write them on their hearts. I will be their God, and they will be my people. No longer will they teach their neighbor, or say to one another, ‘Know the Lord,’ because they will all know me, from the least of them to the greatest. For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more.”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭8:10-12‬ ‭NIV‬‬

See, when we see, believe and ACCEPT Jesus Christ for what he did and what it meant to you and I, Life begins. Our identity is defined right here. No longer do we have to struggle with who we are, our sexual identity, chasm between right and wrong…every struggle and I mean every, begins to become dismembered in the light of Gods word which is the light of Christ. This is a supernatural transformation work that takes place within our hearts every single day. There is no will power involved, no philosophies, no glass balls, no cards, no chants nothing dark and nothing sinister.

Jesus becomes unashamedly our identity and the crisis is quashed! The veil of darkness has been removed. When we sign up to Christ and the finished work of the cross by simply saying “ Yes, Jesus, I believe” we become Gods own inheritance and he becomes everything for us. He becomes enough; an insatiable relationship with God becomes our journey – That there is the oxymoron of grace.

The power sin has over us now becomes subject to the power in Jesus Christ. Remember he owns all authority in heaven and on earth and any other extra terrestrial spaces that may exist. He is the power! When we realize that our will power shall never at any point in time end our addictions, dysfunctions and closeted sins, then we will discover the grace of God. The grace of God which is the power of God, will then become the absolutely only power that puts an end to these struggles. Not our good intentions or righteous indignations neither the sense of conviction, nor condemnation, that happens deep within our hearts. These veils are ripped apart in the power of Christ

Here and now, I intend to turn your focus on everything you think you may know or suspect about why Jesus had to die for you, me and your worst enemy. Focus on what is written and let it become a mirror for you and allow it to draw out your life’s intents and purpose. It is written:

“He died for everyone so that those who receive his new life will no longer live for themselves. Instead, they will live for Christ, who died and was raised for them. So we have stopped evaluating others from a human point of view. At one time we thought of Christ merely from a human point of view. How differently we know him now! This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun! And all of this is a gift from God, who brought us back to himself through Christ. And God has given us this task of reconciling people to him. For God was in Christ, reconciling the world to himself, no longer counting people’s sins against them. And he gave us this wonderful message of reconciliation.”
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭5:15-19‬ ‭NLT‬‬

“Now, if anyone is enfolded into Christ, he has become an entirely new person. All that is related to the old order has vanished. Behold, everything is fresh and new.”
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭5:17‬ ‭TPT‬‬

Such a profound scripture! Cheers, I just reconciled you to Christ and called you into your freedom!

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God, you’re such a safe and powerful place to find refuge!
You’re a proven help in time of trouble—
more than enough and always available whenever I need you.
So we will never fear
even if every structure of support were to crumble away.
We will not fear even when the earth quakes and shakes,
moving mountains and casting them into the sea.
For the raging roar of stormy winds and crashing waves
cannot erode our faith in you.

Psalms 46:1-3

There is this place we find ourselves, not such a nice place to be. That place we are defenseless, facing a form of surrender, a place we are surrounded and everything is going up in smoke, that part of our life’s journey that looks like a dead-end ahead, end of the road, a cliff…dark and no skyline, no horizon to inspire hope, that place, it’s not so nice to be in. It feels dark, hopeless, there is usually tears, despair, brokenness, fear, disappointment…stuff that can drown you into an abyss of defeat. If you are a Christian, and it doesn’t matter what you know or don’t, it’s this place where we face a power, rather a real force of doubt, that in my experience, it was so real it scared me when I came to. I doubted God, it scared me that such a place exists.

“But I am afraid that just as Eve was deceived by the serpent’s cunning, your minds may somehow be led astray from your sincere and pure devotion to Christ.” 2 Corinthians 11:3

“I was in certain danger

Caught in the crossfire of hope and regret

Thought I could be my own savior

But I’m sinking, sinking fast

‘Cause it’s too much to handle

Alone in the battle I’m desperate for You, Lord” – Tauren Wells TRENCHES

This defenseless spot that Tauren wells my favorite all-time artist calls ‘Trenches”, is I think that place Elijah found himself when he was running from Jezebel, she had promised him death and he was afraid, he actually sat under a broom tree and asked to die. Yes, this is the same great prophet Elijah, who called down fire on wet wood, the same Elijah that put a lockdown on rain, and except at it word, would the rains return! 1 Kings 19

When I write this, I am in a trench over an issue of life. I am facing defeat and it is real and no one had earlier taught me that there will be times you will not live in victory, I only learned this but a few years ago. And that’s why I am still standing unashamed that I doubted God. However, as you keep growing in your relationship with Christ and experiencing the riches of his glory, only do you get to see darkness for what it is. There are things I know, and I know you do too; these things are those that we can look at and just see it clearly as smack from hell!

This is the same place where King David found himself before he became king; he hid among the Philistines, the enemy of Israel, just to escape the torment of King Saul. It is the same place Stephen the Marty met his death, they say he dies smiling. It’s that place Moses found himself at the banks of the red sea with Pharaoh on his trail with thousands of people prescribed to his leadership. It’s the place where everyone finds themselves and only God shows up, only God, with an “escape plan”

In all these instances, looking back, we see God come on the defense and so even to you and me. I have seen and experienced the powerful force of doubt; than am now able to understand when someone is in doubt about the promises of God, and that the state of doubt is not intentional stop, it’s a force that’s real. It is a real crossfire between faith and signing up to quitters club and ultimately hopelessness.

Then there is also this very real power of resilient faith, a grace that so real that even when we want to quit we just can’t. It is real. I have experienced it. It comes in torrents and sears doubt and hopelessness and leaves carnage at the doorstep of darkness and despair. It is so real, in Jesus Christ. So I have experiences both powers in this spectrum and their realness, but nothing is so inconceivable as the defenses ingrained in the elements of Jesus Christ. I think this is that gradient that determines if we will grow spiritually or we wallow in doubt. It takes God to take us up this incline at life. When we take-up God’s lead during hopeless seasons of our unique lives, our “righteous idiosyncrasies” begin to make reflections to others watching our lives most of who are what I call “silent students” We tend to become most assuredly, reference points encouragement, living epistles of grace when their dark seasons’ dawn.

The convictions of King David on the mercy and favor of God are my personal reference points. Throughout the psalms, he credits God for his safety, provision, his strength, his favor, and a diverse array of other attributes and spiritual experiences he had. David the King was acclaimed “a man after God’s own heart”. For David, I continue to see God’s love and presence webbed in the victories he won, the death he escaped at the hands of his many enemies, the comfort he received in the valley of the shadow of death. I see and hear his cries of despair, I see him in trenches he is defenseless. I keep seeing God who had chosen him, had him anointed King as a teenage boy by Samuel the Prophet, and the tough inception journey he took before he actually sat on the throne. It is also said God gave him rest from his enemies! David is a best seller for me

The Israelite exodus journey also becomes a very ideal reference point that shows supernatural proof of God’s defending prowess. In almost all instances, day and night we see God protecting, providing, and comforting the Israelites even long into the promised land. It is still here in the book of Exodus we see God’s mercy stretched over these disgruntled people he loved. We see God supernaturally providing food every day, water from rocks, clouds of shade in the desert, fires of light in the night…so much supernatural activity that is so astounding just by reading this second book in the bible.

These and many other instances we find in the bible give us confidence in the divine ability of God to break out for us when it’s bleak when it’s dark when it’s hopeless when not a human being you know can save you. That is a good and bad place to be at depending on what perspective you choose to have.

I am blessed and so are you, to realized that gracefully God has stayed you and I on faith zone. Ever since God allowed me a sneak peek at the deep abyss of doubt, I ran and will never look back, so help us God. Places of hopelessness can sink you and God almighty is the only power that can re-direct your heart and place you into hope and victory of matters. Just like David said it in Psalms 139

“I can never escape from your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence! If I go up to heaven, you are there;  if I go down to the grave, you are there. If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans, even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me. I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night— but even in darkness, I cannot hide from you. To you, the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are the same to you”


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There is this amazing discovery that I guess am not shy to admit is a recent realization. I almost said revelation and quickly deserted the word, afraid that it will sound ‘Christian-ese’, and then I would lose you in this first paragraph and we don’t want that to happen; too early.

This discovery Is like one of those things you have been looking at so long, starring at, constantly having interactions with it but you just don’t get it until this one day you happen to be in the “wrong” place like for instance in the bathroom and you yelp! Are we even supposed to get AHA moments or light bulb situations in a bathroom…Can religion accept that we can get revelation while taking a shower or even amid a mundane life activity? I will leave my worst enemy religion there because if I start, it’s going to become a book. So I will say it like Jesus at the wedding “…My time has not yet come…”

See, what I realized or rather I got the revelation of, is that the bible is very literal in its sense. I say this with such intensity as I revere the many aspects of God’s word that I have come to grow into understanding. How literally do I mean the word of God becomes? Like literal, literal. Allow me to illustrate but I will start backward.

In Matthew 17:2 we read and believe the testimony of Matthew as he describes the bon voyage moment of Christ post-resurrection.

“Then Jesus’ appearance was dramatically altered. A radiant light as bright as the sun poured from his face. And his clothing became luminescent—dazzling like lightning. He was transfigured before their very eyes”

I was pretty wowed reading this because it totally does sound like something we see in these marvel productions, stuff my children believe is literal. I have a son who dotes on flash who I think totally rocks actually, just not his intelligence) Back to Jesus who is returning to our father and it’s such a sight, he is said to have become such a radiant light, so bright, dazzling. If we also reference the witness of Paul, Saul then, en route Damascus on one of his persecuting tours. It is here he was intercepted by Jesus who appeared to him as “a bright light from heaven”…Paul became blind thereafter but for 3 days, I think this is where the philosophy of Saul blacked out, literary!

The word of God has depicted Jesus Christ as a light, literary. Looking further to understand Jesus and light, we find him bearing witness of himself in John 8:12 which really pissed off the Pharisees!

“Then Jesus said, “I am light to the world and those who embrace me will experience life-giving light, and they will never walk in darkness.”

They found him audacious. They were so blind-sided, these Pharisees that they couldn’t even understand Jesus when he went on to tell them about his father bearing witness of what he had just told them about himself. It’s unbelievable sometimes when I read how such many throngs of doubters surrounded Jesus especially at the temple, some even had face to face encounters, conversations and yet they just couldn’t see Jesus Christ for who he was. Especially these Pharisees, the very legalistic, blind, religious group, they didn’t accept his witness and who he was

“The true light that gives light to everyone was coming into the world. He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him. He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God. ” John 1: 9-12

So when we get the understanding of how Jesus has inferred himself as light to men, he simply meant this. Jesus is the very word of God, the direction for men, the path of life, the very truth, the way, grace itself, strength and might in the manifest, all forms of wisdom, infinite knowledge, cascading riches of grace, practical understanding…He was IT.

And so comes this great and high calling to embrace Christ as your entire life’s influence. This invite is so ridiculously free that it has left so many doubtful and spectators; the bleachers are so full. Those that have simply accepted this truth have entered into a non-religious, non-philosophical, vibrant narrow path that is well lit and of course illuminated by Christ. It’s a privilege to be called a child of God with an inheritance and in the same breadth become God’s inheritance! (Ephesians 1: 11) So marvelous!

For once you were full of darkness, but now you have light from the Lord. So live as people of light! For this light within you produces only what is good and right and true. Ephesians 5:8-9

The same love that God has for Jesus is that which he has for us, for me this is unfathomable yet so surreal. How incredible that the light of Jesus as a living virtue has been embedded into a physical light, a radiant, that is oh so unfathomable! I believe this is just but a very minute element of what is described as the riches of the glory of Jesus Christ – They are unsearchable.

Christ is our light of life. No one that is in him; influenced by him can stay in darkness. He stated that no one will walk in darkness when they are in him. So you cannot walk in confusion and unrest because you have the mind of Christ. He comes to give you life, the abundance of it, the peace that not even the treasures of life can give you, the peace that is to date unfathomable to the mind, any mind, even those that experience it!

There is so much embedded in the light of Jesus Christ that I have done an injustice in attempting to make a description. I even get overwhelmed and I have to just stop.

And so I pray with you:

“I pray that the Father of glory, the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, would impart to you the riches of the Spirit of wisdom and the Spirit of revelation to know him through your deepening intimacy with him. I pray that the light of God will illuminate the eyes of your imagination, flooding you with light, until you experience the full revelation of the hope of his calling that is, the wealth of God’s glorious inheritances that he finds in us, his holy ones! I pray that you will continually experience the immeasurable greatness of God’s power made available to you through faith. Then your lives will be an advertisement of this immense power as it works through you! This is the mighty power that was released when God raised Christ from the dead and exalted him to the place of highest honor and supreme authority in the heavenly realm! ” Ephesians 1:17-20



That’s a synonym of prayer. There’s a little ‘twist” that becomes evident when a person uses a lens to view what praying really means. I am not attempting to give anyone reading, a “universal” definition of prayer, because I also don’t believe one exists. If it does, it is enormously questionable. If anyone attempted to define it, it would be equal to making an attempt to define parameters of intimate relationships, placing a standardization on it. Who does that!

Indeed, there are many resources, books, and all, that have attempted to bring insights on prayer. I would recommend Philip Yancey’s book on Prayer.  I found such great insights on the subject. By principal, let place great value on what Jesus spoke on prayer; a model of prayer; Matthew 6 becomes our reference;

“Whenever you pray, be sincere and not like the pretenders who love the attention they receive while praying before others in the meetings and on street corners. Believe me, they’ve already received in full their reward.” – Here Christ was teaching us to check our motives at the onset of prayer. This was more like a heart check. I realize we sometimes pray for others out of compassion but also, there are those moments our hearts act out on their nature of being desperately wicked, and its why, we have to get it right in the heart, because out of our hears flows the issue of life. Our hearts need a check, our motives need to be probed and our pride charts need to be reviewed, or else we will find ourselves praying in the Luke 18 perspective, that was made by the religious leader. Proudly pious with a chip on his shoulders, and he really went all out with his “righteous” profile – Such was not a prayer, not a perspective, but pride and rags. Then there was the despised tax collector within the same temple, broken before God, remorseful of his wayward ways and choices, repentant and humble. It is he that was made right with God. These two parable stars had a different perspective in their approach to talking with God. Entitlement if I may, warn us, closes us out from receiving the grace of God.

But whenever you pray, go into your innermost chamber and be alone with Father God, praying to him in secret. And your Father, who sees all you do, will reward you openly”. Here is a deeper call into intimacy with God. How do we get to “shut doors” and have an encounter with God every day? Can we get to close out all the distractions and pay attention to the supernatural world? We can. It never gets easier. It is possible. It is intentional, its a discipline, Its a practice, its a passion, a habit, its a relationship…Its a place we all grow into, but the heart must want. Then, I came to understand, there is a reward(s) in this practice

“When you pray, there is no need to repeat empty phrases, praying like those who don’t know God, for they expect God to hear them because of their many words.  There is no need to imitate them since your Father already knows what you need before you ask him”. To talk to a God who already knows your thoughts and needs, live! He knows what’s trending with you, he has your hair count, he knows you more than you know yourself, yet you have to “take time off” these life and live events of your life, to engage in conversation. It really does seem incomprehensible. He invites us to himself through grace where we find each other. Relationship

See “prayer is not a means of removing the unknown and unpredictable elements in life, but rather a way of including the unknown and unpredictable in the outworking of the grace of God in our lives” – Philip Yancey. When we pray “May your will (God) be done, here on earth as it is in heaven..” we realize that his will is enclosed in his word, the scriptures that are alive and active. His will is not a mystery as it sometimes looks like. His will for you and I is not elusive at all. Its when we read the word of God that we can articulate ourselves into an understanding of his ways. Let me illustrate; We have a need for healing in our bodies. Since we know that he has healed before many many many times as was demonstrated by Christ in his ministry, we then understand that he intends to heal – thus his will. So when we pray with this understanding that we are asking for healing from God, it becomes a faith perspective

So we come boldly and confidently with all our asks including this one of healing. We believe in his ability to do so and hold onto this persuasion. That already becomes a prayer of faith, which in James 5: 15 is willfully made evident. Here is what, when we pray, we are simply coming into an enclosed intimate space to gain perspective of God’s will, plan, and direction, among other things in God, that am yet to discover, is in the riches of his glory.

He prompts us to come boldly and confident to his throne; no protocols. Yet we have made for ourselves symbolic items and agendas in approaching his throne of mercy to obtain Grace. So I found this light of insight in his invite; if I am coming to God to seek Mercy and Grace to face life, how is it that we “suit up” to talk to God. If you lost hope and are distraught and at your end (a position that most times send us into prayer) why would you need to put a facade to talk to your father yet the content of your heart is known to him.

We go to his presence in prayer so weak, so graceless, so broken, so angry, so distraught, so confused, so betrayed, so guilty, yet he calls us his righteous ones, like we always are, even with our vile tongues and hearts that are wicked. He loves us so that we don’t need a pass to approach his throne, the holiest thrones that will ever be. He made Jesus the pass, so don’t “suit up”, just get in and get perspective of you and him and the intricate, infinite depth of your relationship with him.

 “And when you pray, make sure you forgive the faults of others so that your Father in heaven will also forgive you.  But if you withhold forgiveness from others, your Father withholds forgiveness from you.” I always see this as a disclaimer. The conditions of being forgiven are hinged on our ability to extend mercy to those that offend us. Simple. Not only is this a disclaimer but such a grand benefit on a personal level. When we don’t forgive, we carry an offense. That’s excess baggage, and we know that comes with a cost. Unforgiveness is and can become such a hindrance that stops our lives from progressing so much so that even our physical bodies suffer collateral damage through it. It is that same throne of Mercy and Grace that we find the ability to extend mercy and pardon to others, no, you don’t have a human ability to forgive, it’s the grace of God at play.

It is in prayer that we get the perspectives of our life’s challenges. We talk to God and he talks to us. We approached the throne, oh so hopeless and he comforts us, he responds to our needs, the good shepherd he is. We enter prayer rooms, angry, weak, guilty as crimson and when we come out, God’s power and purpose become the only thing that comes afloat. The issues that were, become submerged into his power, quashed into non-existence.

Finally, your perspective of who God is plays a major role in how and what your prayer becomes. I find that even for myself, I may approach God as a friend, sometimes my father, sometimes the only most revered being I desire to become vulnerable to and at times, an enemy. We don’t have to get into any legalistic perspectives to enter his throne, that is always wide open, we come in just as we may be, it is how we come out that counts for hope and grace.

Jesus spent a great chunk of his time here on earth praying, and he ultimately accomplished the “work” that God had laid out for him. Am convinced if it were not for his prayer-filled life, the odds would have been different in the garden of Gethsemane.






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There is nothing more empty and a wasteful pursuit than it is, to wake up every single day, exert your energies, skills, time, and money if your motive is nothing other than love. I didn’t say it, I found it here;

Love, the Motivation of Our Lives
“If I were to speak with eloquence in earth’s many languages, and in the heavenly tongues of angels, yet I didn’t express myself with love, my words would be reduced to the hollow sound of nothing more than a clanging cymbal. And if I were to have the gift of prophecy with a profound understanding of God’s hidden secrets, and if I possessed unending supernatural knowledge, and if I had the greatest gift of faith that could move mountains, but have never learned to love, then I am nothing. And if I were to be so generous as to give away everything I owned to feed the poor, and to offer my body to be burned as a martyr, without the pure motive of love, I would gain nothing of value”. 1 Corinthians 13: 1-3

Has everything we do therefore become set on one filter called Love? Yes. It doesn’t matter who you are in this life and what you do, love becomes the only constant motivation for anything to count; anything else is a waste. And imagine waking up and exerting yourself on repeat, to end at nothing! zero! Love the centerpiece for everything!

I remember in my 20’s I had this super need to understand what true love was. Let me humor you then, I spent incredible time reading the cosmopolitan magazine trying to find out what love was. true story. You can guess how that went down. Am even laughing at myself right now.  It took me years to find the most profound yet simple definition of love; my Aha moment;

“Love is large and incredibly patient. Love is gentle and consistently kind to all. It refuses to be jealous when blessing comes to someone else. Love does not brag about one’s achievements nor inflate its own importance. Love does not traffic in shame and disrespect, nor selfishly seek its own honor. Love is not easily irritated or quick to take offense. Love joyfully celebrates honesty and finds no delight in what is wrong. Love is a safe place of shelter, for it never stops believing the best for others. Love never takes failure as defeat, for it never gives up” 1 Corinthians 13: 4 -7

I have never stopped looking at this definition ever. It’s become a mirror at which I cross-check my motivations when doing anything. Even in my 11 years of marriage and 9 years of parenting, I have to keep checking to see if there is a reflection of it, or else I need to loop my actions till I get it right.

Love, I have found is so pure and a means to an end. When we understand that there is no law against love, you will wrap everything you know including yourself in it. Love became the essence that mattered because God himself made it to become everything that matters. He is it. He is love

So since no one is doing time because they got a sentence for loving too much, its a safe sell for me and a safe buy-in for you. You don’t want to wake up on repeat, to the pursuit, to just end up in a sweat that counts to nothing, to zero. Why would you want to sign up for anything in life that is binding, if it’s not motivated by love? It would be a waste, your waste.

Here, in my writing, I thought to share the one true definition of love found in scripture that I can say befits its subscribers. In different life zones, there is a different definition of Love. Let us peek at the marriage zone; it’s laughable. Our cosmopolitan world has an unrealistic prescription of love in marriage. I will elaborate on this. For years, you and I have heard that marriage is prescribed on 50-50 input from all spouses (am not even sure what metrics were being used) So what if your husband or wife get into a season in their life’s journey (because it will happen) and they just can be this ideal “equal partner” (Read, 50%)… I can’t even continue to play on this hypothetical situation because – “Love is large and incredibly patient and Love is a safe place of shelter, for it never stops believing the best for others. Love never takes failure as defeat, for it never gives up” Perfect Love – Love never stops loving.

Love is such a power, an incredible one. Let me explore the zone of friendships and betrayal – yes, I know its a sore. Lets both recall the moment that hypothetical knife was dug deep into our backs by one of Judas’s relatives – somehow am always thinking Judas’s DNA went just too far before he strangled himself – you got betrayed and it hurt for so long…here is what – But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven; for He makes His sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust” – Mathew 5:44

Not only is there a reward for this, but you will not be exerting this priceless gift of love on anyone enemy if God was not empowering you to do that, you CANNOT on your ability and will.  It’s supernatural and a grace. It has to be supernatural to hold betrayal and love in a unit

If our deep understanding of love stays at the definition of scripture, we cannot fail. It is as simple as that. I would rather we bench all our motives on love and hope to fail or walk in shame (which we won’t, of course). Any other motive would be a risk and a short term lease – no one like those

So above all else, let love be the beautiful prize for which you run.

A Letter To My Father

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God unfathomable, how incredible are your ways. You told me that you love me and it was everlasting. You also told me that you are nearer and not far away. I understand that my limited mind cannot even begin to search the depth of your riches both of your wisdom and knowledge, how unsearchable are your judgments and decisions, so untraceable are your ways! Is there anyone who has known your mind or even been your counselor! How great you are sovereign lord, no one is like you, I have never even heard of another God like you.


There are instances the world had given me options of comfort; to replace that innate need, that divine purpose; this mysterious longing which nothing under the sun can satisfy, except you. Yet you have made everything beautiful in your time, yet no one can really see the scope of your invaluable plans from the beginning to the end. I am undone! How is it that these ‘things’ I chase here where I am, where my sisters and brothers are, come to empty even with the highest accolades? Is this the vanity King Solomon the wisest was on about, vanity? How is it I have acquired power from you, to have dominion here, and yet when I rise to this, it still becomes that insatiable thing? I didn’t find you in my highest achievement, not in my circles of influence, nor in my highs or lows of life, I actually ended up fogged up, convulsed, suffocated by life, then. Not now


Now I know where to find you, sometimes I also don’t know. You taught me to come confidently before you to your gracious throne and take with me grace; the help I need. I know you asked me to seek you with all my heart and that I will find you, am assured to find you. I know it’s on waiting on you that I am strengthened, I can glide through life just by doing this, because you lead me in the way to follow. I am never alone. I have learned to trust you through the most difficult of times, situations, and places. How is it that I can forget the riches of your mercy and fail to extend the same to people that just get to me, especially in traffic (Lol) How is it that I can forget the answered prayers and end up in restlessness when some items on my wish list haven’t been checked off, years on? Indeed, I am dust and you don’t forget this aspect of me, I am forgiven


I wrote to you God, to remind myself the imagery of who you are in my life lest I forget it in my day of trouble, in my day of trial and my day of temptation. I want to keep this as my checklist of your goodness toward me and the evidence of the hope I have had in you and how indeed, good your plans are for me. So I will not only reference your love and mercy that you extended to the resting victors; Abraham, Moses, Jacob nor David my all-time favorite and the like. I will bring it home for anyone that needs to get it and King James didn’t make sense.


You intricately made me, beautiful and wonderful. You have cradled me throughout my days. I am a marvelously breathtaking even with my addictions. Not only do you have my hair count, you skillfully shaped me to look just like you, not even a bone in me is unknown to you. You then planned my days and set me here where I am. Called me to purpose and chose me to represent your interests here on earth. You didn’t stop there, you became a father to me, my God of hope, my life teacher –  your lessons have been a roller-coaster – ish in my perspective, you have left me insatiable!


I have known you as my healer, provider, protector, teacher, friend, father, lover, and it is conclusive you are my everything! The experiences I have had with you from when you found me in the deep trenches of my empty life, they are the kind they say are unbelievable, yet I believed and I saw and I see. They are still the ones that still don’t believe that you sent your only son to die for me, that I am today redeemed, the cross is still a blind aspect – Open their eyes of understanding. Hell cannot become their home.


Even with other lives, I have seen you; I have heard the moves you have made in them and for them and I marvel. Right now am still stuck on how James Goll has had cancers 3 times and he is a walking miracle! There is so much I can attest to, father. Incredibly, I know you, such a privilege, an honor, a gift simply.


Keep my mind and all my faculties stayed on you. If you do, I will conquer, I will win, after all its a fixed match. Fixed on the cross, nails, crowns, blood and all. The contention was broken, every enemy defeated, my life made new. Who would want an alternative to this? Only He who says there is no God, and that will be their undoing.

My letter has been unjust to even attempt to express who you are. I am left undone!




Excerpts from: Jeremiah 23:23, Romans 11:33-34, 2 Samuel 7:22,Ecclesiastes 3:11, Hebrews 4:16, Jeremiah 29:13, Psalms.22, 139, 14.

“Yes, i have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with loving kindness i have drawn you”

Jeremiah 31:3

An Inside Job


It’s a potent, promising vibrant Monday morning, reports are being submitted at God’s majestic Holy throne. Amongst the present, are holy beings and an unholy one; Satan the designated accuser.  His job description has never changed since his seditious choice during the untainted age of Eden, the garden.

It’s about 8 am (typical) on this Monday morning, it’s all suits, ties, wings, and good reports but then bets are placed…

Job 1:6-8 MSG

“One day when the angels came to report to GOD, Satan, who was the designated accuser, came along with them. GOD singled out Satan and said, “What have you been up to?” Satan answered God, “Going here and there, checking things out on earth.”GOD said to Satan, “Have you noticed my friend Job? There’s no one quite like him—honest and true to his word, totally devoted to God and hating evil.”

What ensued after these conversations between God and Satan is that Job lost the entirety of his wealth, his children, and his health in an instance. He, being one of the wealthiest men in the land of UZ, had a good reputation. He had integrity and feared God.

More often than not, when we go through dark times, we always unfailingly identify Lucifer as the cause of all our troubles, and most often than not, he gets and runs the credits himself. But see how this proposal is made right from the holiest of places, and by far the most significant meet that happened and continues to happen even now -with the same attendees. God incites Lucifer and there is a ‘job’ on Job. During these excruciating painful events, Job had such a calm attitude and profound understanding, which was unattainable to ordinary people indeed. Even his three crazy close friends didn’t get it. They ran their mouths and God almost dealt with them according to their folly if it wasn’t for Jobs prayer.

In retrospect, I think God is the only one who holds exclusive bragging rights on any of us, as is the case with Job. The magnitude of confidence that God had over Job must be an out of this world kind literary because Job did not bend his knee to the prince of this world. Even after losing significant blessings through Satan’s hate crimes, God knew Job had it in him to stand. God even acknowledged Job as a friend. Without intent, i have however made light of the dark days of Job

Only, I would love to have met Job just after chapter forty-two, simply because there would have been more essence and depth about God in him. There is something about the old testament burnt offering smell in its revelatory meaning, that can be inferred to Jobs’s back to back catastrophic times and the unfazed honor he had in God. Read that again. What became of Jobs latter days and his deeply inclined relationship with God, would be a book I would love to read or write – “Job and his latter days” 

Now, I am careful to ask God “Can you have such confidence in me? Do you think I can stand if you placed a bet on me even for one day or even an hour? Would I honor you even when I don’t understand why I am down, out, and desperate, yet I have only lifted my heart of praise to you? Why do my spiritual metrics not match the said and expected rewards? Why do the righteous have to fall 7 times, though they rise, why do they have to fall? Did you allow Satan to fall me? God, would you place a bet on me?” And a myriad of other questions.

I would hope that God would respond affirmatively and drop the mic. That I wouldn’t have to go through any testing of my faith and purifying processes, endurance building seasons as we all do. It is here I feel like Job; some days I curse my birthday (Job 3) and there are days I will assert my faith( Job 31) – Life and times of a Christian(Sigh) (Another book title)

There is such an inside job that God does within us as we are in Him and Him in us that divinely enables us to ferociously stand in the wake of disasters and catastrophes in our personal lives. I can attest to this power that is engraved deep within us that logic cannot put pen to paper to explain. Its the power unto salvation, its the beauty of Grace its Christ in us in 3D

It is Jesus and the inside job he work in us daily. Its a beauty, its power, and evident amongst all of us.

A conclusive sincere prayer for you and I;
“Now may the God who brought us peace by raising from the dead our Lord Jesus Christ so that he would be the Greatest Shepherd of his flock; and by the power of the blood of the eternal covenant may He work perfection into every part of you giving you all that you need to fulfill your destiny. And may He express through you all that is excellent and pleasing to Him through your life-union with Jesus the anointed one who is to receive all glory forever! Amen”
Hebrews 13:20-21 TPT